It’s A Bridge

A while back I crossed a bridge. Actually I had to cross that bridge, it wasn’t as if I had a choice on whether or not to cross it. It was a long time coming … now finally I’ve made it to the other side! We’ve heard ‘the grass is greener on the other side’ I can’t tell ya that for sure ’cause I’ve only been here for a minute (but I’ll get back to you on this).

So what/where is this ‘bridge’ I’m talking about here? I know from pre-school we was taught of London Bridge but naah that ain’t it. Neither is it the music connotation bridge; forget the literal sense here it’s more abstract.
I’m using the word bridge to symbolise a passage, a crossover, a time when change is inevitable in our lives.

I can’t particularly say I hate change. I just don’t work well with it… Do You??

To me: Change means loss;
             Loss means leaving; Leaving means abandoning;Abandonment means to forget;
Forgetting means to start over_

_ I didn’t wanna start over! Lets be fair here people, Does anyone?? On the top of your head you may think I’m just making a fuss outta nothing but take my word for it, it’s easier said than done*no cliche*

In this instance my own bridge was joining college.

(College is partly the reason I’ve been slacking of late on writing… duty calls 🙂 pardon me! )
For as long as I can remember, college has always been the cherry on the icing. Something you eagerly await for, and even during that wait begin planning and fantasising on how it’s all gonna go down yo! We obsess over the freedom and absense of rules, getting to do all the don’ts that mama told us not to do, the mad fun and never seizing hype.

We be on that fast ride y’all and ain’t stopping at nothing!

  With freedom comes responsibility. That’s what they say (I don’t know who said it) ; this to me proves to be a little more than just a saying. It’s a reality more so. See, having nobody there in particular to be accountable to just means that you’ve gotta be accontable to yourself. How you conduct yourself is on you! It’s dounting to think that ain’t no one got your back when you trip. But that’s sadly the case.

My transitioning period, just before joining my college, was filled with castles… big castles… in the air.

Time and again I would involuntarily find myself zoned out and my imagination would run wild. I’d imagine how the campus would look like, how excited I’d be to meet new people and make new connections, how I’ll have me self a fresh start, what front I’d put up and which persona I’d like to be known by. I had jumped the bullet and was thinking waaaay ahead of myself. To the point that it started being unhealthy ’cause then I would get nervous of it all. You know those moments when you overthink a situation that it freaks you out even before going through it? Yap, I had plenty of those too! StoryOfMyLife

So there I was … driving myself nuts tryna plan it all out acting like some CIA agent or something. Forgetting that what’s meant to have been will&shall be despite me stressing over things!

Clearly I was having cold feet. To the point that even my parents noticed that I had jitters.
I was nervous of crossing The Bridge!

I had not the slightest clue what lied ahead but all I knew is that I wasn’t quite physically or psychologically prepared for it. Nor was I ready to part with my old life and old routines.

  But isn’t that the whole point!?
The whole essence of change is uncertainty. We never feel 100% ready for anything new that comes our way. Anything that forces us to alter our normaʹleʹ isn’t smooth butter.

But hey guess what? Everything fell into place in the end.

Eventually all that I was worrying sick about came to pass. And the interesting part is, life happened not how I’d pictured and planned it to but how it ought and was supposed to. Best part is that it was all Good! And it all worked out to my benefit!

Guess we could say FATE and LIFE both had my back. And I’m grateful for that! Next time you come to a bridge cross it, better things lie ahead! There could be greener grass on that other side 🙂
{Literally and figuratively}

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